Arvind Dev: Humans of Staten Island Tech

“I’ve been told that I’m always outgoing, confident, and positive. This may come as a surprise to some, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. For a long time, I’ve been dealing with low self-esteem and self-confidence. I have a hard time believing in and liking myself, and it’s been a major limiting factor throughout my life. I remember a point in fourth grade when I was doing a science outline, and I was having a hard time completing every single box. So, I would write ‘I hate myself,’ at the bottom of every single page. My mom confronted me and asked me why I wrote it. I had no answer for her. Today, I still wouldn’t have an answer for her. But, what I do know, is that my struggle is perfectly okay and I’m not ashamed of it.
This is my personal struggle – a struggle just as valid as anyone’s. I may have a hard time having faith in myself, but it’s something that I can work on every single day and strive to conquer. I’m able to wake up every day and decide that I can take one more baby step on the path to recovery. Most of all, I’m able to make a positive difference in someone’s life to ensure that they never have to go through the pain that I’ve gone through. Everyone has some sort of personal struggle, and it’s relative to your own experiences. You can struggle with your favorite celebrity crush getting into a relationship, despite people telling you that you’re childish. You can struggle with your parents divorcing, despite people telling you to bury your feelings away because ‘life moves on.’ Because that’s your struggle – it is neither superior nor inferior to anyone else’s. We’ve all had had different experiences and problems that have shaped us to who we are today, but what matters most is that you continue to fight your personal struggle, to one day say that you were able to conquer it.”

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